The thoughts of Irine

Monday, November 23, 2009

False paranoia

I am a bit paranoid when it comes to my periods. I am totally fucking scared of suddenly getting pregnant. After the New York trip, where I gained one day, and then lost a day coming back to Sydney, my pill schedule was a bit screwed up.

So I was a bit late with my periods last week, was starting to panic a bit on the second day. Texted and emailed close friends, and told my sister. I got mixed reaction. One friend was gleefully happy she might be an auntie soon, my sister was laughing at me, the other friend was neutral. I'm fine with all the reactions. What I'm most concerned with was my own behaviour.

I think it was just so embedded in my brain from all the years before getting married, that getting pregnant was a bad thing! I couldn't help feeling just a tiny bit guilty and worried. That was before I scold myself, as logically, it's fine for me to be pregnant cos I'm married!

Funnily enough, hubbie's reaction was "It's not my fault."

WTF? I actually got a bit upset with him for saying that, because it seems so totally irresponsible of him. But then I thought again, that maybe he said that because he's still got that same mentality, like I did when I unconsciously used the same reaction that I would have if I got pregnant out of a marriage.

I also think he was being a bit defensive in case I blame him for (partly) ruining my plans to get my Master's Degree first. But honestly, if I did get pregnant, I wouldn't be blaming anyone. I'd be quite happy actually, like getting your Christmas present really early (like in April!).

Just to clear any potential misunderstanding, no, I'm not pregnant yet.

irine @ 4:34 PM | # 1 comments

Sunday, November 15, 2009

I'm still alive

After two weeks in NY, back one week in Sydney, I realise I don't really like turning on my computer when I'm at home. So many things to write about and will not be justifiable if I start now. 11pm now. Will write a decent piece soon... promise!

irine @ 11:07 PM | # 0 comments

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

gasps

Just found out that the presentation that I've been making and preparing for the last week was on the wrong topic. Some stupidity on my part for misreading the list of topics for the different weeks. Walked from uni to Central station yesterday to offload emotional self bitterness.

Reading Planet of the Apes by Pierre Boulle at the moment, a little break out of constant work.

I've been hoarding Anne Rice books in preparation for the NY trip, will choose one book to read on the plane. It has to be a book I will be willing to dump in NY if I need to reduce my luggage weight. Which is a really hard thing to do... after my experience dumping a whole box of books leaving Singapore.

Despite everything, things are good. Just busy. :)

irine @ 9:02 AM | # 2 comments

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Unconscious spamming

I think I've been sleep walking.

In the past few months I've been emailing myself random things. Here's a screenshot...

LOL. Just kidding. I think it's creative that they've come up with sending spam as 'me' cos I do sometimes send myself something on my email just as a reminder.

irine @ 7:43 AM | # 0 comments

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

PMS

He complained, "She's always shitty."

She said, "But that's cos I've got PMS."

I said, "Is your PMS really bad?"

She said, "Yeah it's really bad and I'm usually really moody and shitty when I have PMS. And I always get really bad PMS."

I asked, "How long is your PMS usually?"

She said, "Usually about a week and a half before I get my period and then a week and a half after I finish my period."

Thinking on the way home... wait a minute, that doesn't make sense. 1.5 week before period, which is usually 1 week, plus 1.5 week after period equals to 4 weeks, which is the whole month? That means she's shitty constantly! I hope it was a miscalculation...

irine @ 4:43 PM | # 3 comments

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